Bray-tan-yay says: you know i don't understand it

Drop the BOMB says:what

Bray-tan-yay says:why the mean ones stick around so long

Drop the BOMB says:eh explain

Bray-tan-yay says:well i just got the call that my great grandmother died

Bray-tan-yay says:she had had alzheimer's for about 20 years

Bray-tan-yay says:and that's strange because alzheimer's usually kills you soon

Bray-tan-yay says:but from what i hear about her before she was sick, she wasn't a very nice person

Bray-tan-yay says:i think the word "bitch" was used

Drop the BOMB says:are u upset

Bray-tan-yay says:not really... i mean i suppose it would be sad if she was herself, but she really wasn't... she didn't even know who she was at this point, and she hadn't for a really long time

Drop the BOMB says:i would wanna be killed

Bray-tan-yay says:yeah

Bray-tan-yay says:::shudders::

Bray-tan-yay says:i mean, physically, she was in top condition

Bray-tan-yay says:but mentally she wasn't there

Bray-tan-yay says:::shudders at memory of last visit::

Drop the BOMB says:i would wanna be killed as soon as i was diagnosed

Bray-tan-yay says:not as soon... i would want to gather all of my memories etc. and get them together and recorded

Bray-tan-yay says:but then, once i ceased to exist as brittany, i would want to just be done with it

Drop the BOMB says:yeah

Bray-tan-yay says:personally, i think i'd rather have cancer

Bray-tan-yay says:that is, if i had to choose

Drop the BOMB says:be a bad choice

Drop the BOMB says:your fucked either way

Bray-tan-yay says:yeah but at least you're yourself

Bray-tan-yay says:and you're aware of yourself

Drop the BOMB says:uyup

Drop the BOMB says:id rather go down fighting

Bray-tan-yay says:ah

note: i said i'd rather have cancer in an attempt to show that, of the two scariest diseases i can imagine, i'm more afraid of alzheimer's. let the records show i was not asking for cancer in any way, shape, or form.

also note: for those of you who are shocked and/or appalled and/or congratulating me at my use of "b[iznatch]"- i still don't say the word and i rarely write it. so there. i still win.

thank you.

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